pressure

i dont think i've ever felt a pressure like the one that i have been feeling during the past month.
it has overwhelmed me more than i realized.

pressure ...
to be motivated. to be busy. to have money. to find a 'real' career. to be stressed. to not waste my education. to have plans. to be in a relationship. to make something of myself. to suddenly become an adult.

i guess this is my first glimpse into the world of being an adult, of trying to live up to expectation, of trying to fit into our society's norms.

the thing is... i'm not called to fit in with society. the world's norms and expectations are not my own. they are imperfect- fallen.
i'm called only to do His will. not my own, not the world's- His.
" you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world"

i don't think that this pressure is going to subside any time soon. but i know that i can be at peace when i remember that God's plan is the only one that i need to follow. and His expectations are the only ones i need to meet. my purpose is to glorify Him with every moment. when i strive to do this the world's pressure will fade and living for His glory will consume me. this is really all that matters.