about those late night musings...

not sure where to start. as i try and sort out the thoughts running through my brain i realize there is no rhyme or reason. the sun goes down, and its time to sleep and my mind wont let up.

this is the most dangerous time to think i reckon. it sounds ridiculous, but honestly late night contemplation many times turns into worthless anxiety and pointless daydreams. however, as of late, it's been happening quite frequently. someone once told me that writing was the answer, i suppose we'll see. 

as the time to go home to the states comes nearer and nearer, I feel more and more pressure. so many emotions are constantly ravaging my soul. i know that this is causing me to close up, but i'm not quite sure how to handle that. i love it here more than i know how to deal with. 

however, God is good. the only time that i really feel good is when i'm worshiping him. even lately, i've felt so broken in worship. yet, even being so broken, his presence that strong is the most incredible thing i've ever felt. 

and his answer to my constant anxiety, unbearable pressure and barricaded heart? peace. his peace is all i need. he is sufficient. 

in the stillness, he is God. 

Philippians 4:7: "And the peace of God,which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."